Thursday, November 6, 2008

Respectable Sins

That's the name of a book we're reading in our home group. Let me just tell you that I've only read three chapters and am already feeling about an inch tall-which is a good thing. There are so many areas that I want to grow in spiritually. My biggest struggle right now is that I feel like I have a lack of Zeal for God. I feel like a lukewarm Christain right now. My friend Andrea lent me the book 'When I Don't Desire God.' by Jon Piper. I have it next to my bed right now and am planning to read it soon. So my prayer to God right now is "Lord, please help me love you and have a passion for You." On kind of a side note, this morning I was reading a Psalms to the kids before school and I randomly choose Psalm 139,

"Oh Lord, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit down and when I rise up, You discern my thoughts from afar. You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways. Even before a word is on my tongue, behold O Lord , you know it altogether."

The funny part is that when I was reading my book tonight the same Psalms I had read in the morning was being used as an example in the book. It's very convicting to remember how well the Lord knows us; he knows what we will say before we say it. He knows our thoughts (even when we're able to hide them from others.) My prayer is that I will seek to please Him more than other people and that I will choose to lay aside my selfish desires for His will.


tara said...

Thanks for sharing your heart Stef! I know the feeling!? Those seasons are so frustrating...I am so glad God loves us no matter what we do or don't do and that He sees us as He sees His Son! I am actually reading a book for a book study called Holiness by Grace by Bryan Chapell. VERY good! And very freeing! It brings back the joy of living for Jesus! You are making me want to read your book!! :)

Aaron Sauer said...

Great post...thanks Stef. I find the same thing happening to me so often. You are in a good place because the conviction is there.