Sad News Happy Life

When I got the lab results a couple days ago that my numbers were not rising like they should I started to prepare myself for the ultrasound today; So, I was not surprised when they could only see a sac-at this point they should be able to see a hearbeat. All day I've just been wanting the day to pass and get past this but I decided that I at least want to write down the things that keep crossing my mind-this is my journal after all-so here are some random thoughts in no paticular order:

-Children are a miracle
-The Lord causes all things to work together for good for those who love Him
-I didn't realize how much I wanted another child
-My husband couldn't be more supportive.
-Andrea went through this also so she understands how it feels.
-I don't want to ever take for granted my family and friends
-God calls the womb the "secret place" and is in control of everything that happens there
-I am to be grateful for everything
-Through some mystery God allows trials to make us love Him more
-I have suffered very little in my life (so far)
-I really, really hope the Lord allows us to have another child
-My brother really loves his sister
-I'm a little concerned that having two miscarriages in a row may mean that we cannot have any more kids -silly, I know.
-I'm thinking that waiting to find out the results was worse than actually finding them out.
-I really tried to work on patience throught this process-I hope I improved.
-My mother is as sad (actually sadder) than I am about this-that's true motherly love.
-My cousins are priceless
-The Angry Whopper might not have been the best comfort food.
-And I'll end again with one of my favs "BE STILL and know that I am God."

My Big Girl ...and a Tiny Baby

Wanted to get a picture of my big girl riding a motorcycle like a pro. She went camping with the Nardones and they all ride motorcycles (even Brenda-go girl!) I think Christine is hooked now. I'm proud of myself for making it through the weekend while she was gone. Now I just need to make it through her first camp experience. Winter camp is next weekend and I have to admit I'm a little nervous (windy roads in a big bus.) I know I don't have a choice; I need to let her have her independence and remember that the Lord loves her more than I do. Oh, and along those lines of trusting God, I'm very excited to say the that we found out last week that we're pregnant!!!! We are so excited we can't stand it; but, I do have some concern that is preventing me from the joy I could be having. I miscarried a couple months ago so now I'm just much more cautious and not getting too excited until I have confirmation that everything is Ok. I'm trusting the Lord implicitly but also hoping that it's His will that this baby be healthy. I will be getting another ultrasound on Thursday and I'm hoping and praying to see a heartbeat. I will end with the words that keep coming to my mind, "Be still and know that I am God."

Mish Mash

A mish mash of pictures from the last couple weeks....

That giggle I love

Grandpa Rocky tickling

Picking oranges in Fillmore-Steve and the kids juiced them all.

I finally got these pictures framed in the boys room-the rock art that Steve did of each of the kids names in Carpinteria.

Jaden's front tooth dangling

How Livy likes to eat apples

Livy felt like she was going to "fro up" so we made her a bed on the bathroom floor.

Lukie making Christmas treats for teachers.

Livy turned 3

Still catching up on my blog......

We had a little cupcake birthday party for Livy's birthday. Christine and Brenna had a "nail station" and did the girl's nails; and the girls got to decorate their own cupcake. It was very simple but very fun.

Happy Birthday, my sweet girl

Speed Blog

Jaden's 7th birthday on Christmas Eve

Every Christmas I buy the girls an ornament for them to take with them-this year I got Livy ice skates.

The boys really excited about their gift.

Christmas Eve at Uncle Paul and Aunt Judi's

I am so behind!!!! I have no excuse except the business of life-and you know when you get behind on something you put of catching up. But, since I use this blog for my own journaling purposes it is torturing me to be behind. So, I'm going to "speed blog"-try to quickly recount the last month. We had a wonderful Christmas and plenty of great family time because Steve had the last two weeks of December off. On New Years Steve's parents came for a visit and we had a lot of hanging out time-and perfecting our 6 Dice skills. Steve and the kids got to take his parents to the Getty Museum, also. The kids were pretty scarred by some of the statues and paintings-it's culture, right. So far most of January has been pretty mellow; I've been spending time trying to get organized and get back into school mode-that's been a little challenging-maybe it will happen this week!